[she adjusts to the shift, removing her hands from him momentarily to allow him to rest his head on her lap. she appreciates when he does these things—an open show of vulnerability, and that despite his most hardened words that he himself seeks for comfort though he believes himself unworthy of such a thing.]
[she rests a hand over his side while the other lands on his head, brushing his hair back with light, feather-like touches.]
[her smile is small.]
[tell me a story, he says. byleth wants to refute back his previous statement, of how there is so much blood on his hands. there is just as much on her own, too, from when she was a mercenary. no one in this war was saintlier than any other.]
Would you like to know about when I was a kid?
[the memories... are painful, filled with regret. sometimes she wishes she could have cherished the times she spent with her father better, devoid of the apathy that she grew up with, with the indifference of having such a renown father figure that everyone wished to impress.]
[so she begins, light and gentle with her words.] I learned how to ride a horse when I was around eight. I always saw my father on one, and I wanted to be just like him. But — you know, I was even smaller back then. [her height and jeralt's never quite matched] So, he got me a pony. Bumkin, because I couldn't really pronounce Pumpkin right.
It made him laugh every time I rode past him in 'Bumkin,' most likely yelling out of fear from how fast I was going.
[byleth keeps brushing his blond hair gently, but swallows thickly.]
My growing up was a blur of days. [she thinks] If there is... anything specific you want to know about, you can ask.
[Of course he wants to know. He wants to know everything about her; Byleth’s air of mystery had always extended to her past. A mercenary with such skill, the daughter of a practically legendary ex-Knight of Seiros. What was it like, growing up in such a way? So sheltered from the rest of the world, knowing what he knows of her?
The sensation of her fingers running through his hair, brushing stray strands aside, is calming. Dimitri closes his eye, kept still by her warmth.]
I can imagine it well. You, galloping alongside your father while mounted on your faithful pony.
[He’s smiling more sincerely now. It really is an amusing thought, trying to imagine her so small, still learning.]
I was even younger when I rode my first horse. Many children in Faerghus are taught how to ride and wield a sword before they also learn how to write — royalty was especially no exception. My father… [It’s difficult, sometimes, speaking about happier times so openly. But just as Byleth shared with him, he will do the same. It’s only fair.] My father placed me atop a warhorse. I was terrified, it was so large, I clung to its mane the entire time he led it around the stables, reassuring me that it would be all right. That riding was in my blood, like so much else in the Blaiddyd line.
[He pauses, letting that settle. Memories weighing deeply on both of them.]
Your father taught you how to wield a sword too, didn’t he? Did you take to it with ease?
[ever wonder why byleth rather be on foot, even if being on a horse would be that much more convenient in terms of saving her energy and being quick about her trips? some things just never change.]
[it's great, she thinks, to hear dimitri speak openly about his own memories of the past, as difficult as they are. the tragedy in duscur made conversations about his father and family a seldom affair, but since they're both sharing — it really is only fair.]
[and while happy it is a memory, it makes byleth... pause.]
[it seems like their pasts and present has been marred with responsibility and bloodshed and just what it means to walk the path set before them. she sees it even now, as dimitri will be crowned king and she will undoubtedly ascend to archbishop of the church of seiros. being taught to wield a sword, the blood that has covered the blades she's wielded, her own inability at saving her father although she could turn back time. she wishes for happier times, together.]
[with a small sigh and a nod, she keeps her face down to look at him, a sad look in her eyes.]
After all this is over, will you be at my side? I—
[she hesitates, closing her mouth and lips a thin line as she tries to find the words.]
[Silence overcomes the greenhouse for a few moments. It is indicative of thought, and he is used to them from Byleth, so Dimitri waits patiently for a response.
When it comes, he opens his eye again, brow pinching. Her train of thought has taken her elsewhere, and while he often struggles to make the connections to follow, it’s far easier this time. Speaking of the past always leads to how one wants it to affect the future — he would know this better than anyone, now.
He shifts, turning to lay on his back. From this angle, he can see her face, gazing up at her with consideration. Her features are cast against the warm illumination of the greenhouse.]
Byleth. [In this moment, the title is dropped. No longer Professor and ex-student, or king-to-be and his loyal comrade and irreplaceable friend. Just Dimitri and Byleth, an intimacy between them that carves out this familiarity.] I do not plan on ever being without you. I…
[I want to make a happy life — with you. His heart may burst.]
You make me happy. Now, just being close with you like this; that is all it takes. From here on out, this will not change. [And yet, this is not just about him, it has not been for a long time now.] But I wish to be strong enough for you, as well. I want to make you happy. Make you laugh. I want to chase after your smile in every way possible. You have done so much for me, and I— I want to be able to return the favor.
If it is happiness you want, I will offer every part of myself to create it for you. It is what you deserve, and more.
[how do you answer a profession of love — because it is — said in such an earnest, honest manner? byleth's eyes are wide as she looks down at him, clearly trying to let the words swim in her head and give her insight on the right thing to say.]
[you make me happy. dimitri makes her happy, too. i want to make you happy. make you laugh. i want to chase after your smile in every way possible. this is exactly what byleth wants, too, her feelings put into words so precisely it's almost shocking that dimitri got them spot on. her father's words i hope you'll give this ring to someone you love as well as i love her, speaking of her mother, and at the time she felt that he was teasing her for a bit — the subject of love embarrassing in a childish sort of way.]
And I will love you in return. [this seems right] More so than what I do now.
[There is nothing else she could say that would shake him to the core as much as that. His blue-eye widens, and he feels his breath catch in his throat, sticking there to act as a bulwark against his heart leaping up in it, too. He meant what he said. He would sacrifice so much of himself to keep her happy, and that alone is a confession — but to hear it spoken aloud is like plucking it from thin air and turning it into reality. He cannot escape the revelation, nor would he ever want to.
He doesn’t deserve her love. She is so very, very beyond him in every way. She is divine, her soul blessed by the Goddess; he is just a broken man who will one day pretend he is fit to be King. No, he doesn’t deserve it, but he cannot help but covet it all the same.
He swallows. Dimitri’s heart won’t still in his chest. He dumbly has no words, but he does not need them.
He reaches up, sliding a hand behind her head, fingers lacing through her hair. His other arm props himself up by the elbow and he cranes his neck, lifting, stealing a kiss from her lips. No warning, no preamble — he’s wanted this for so long.]
[and byleth, too, even if she wasn't aware of what her own desires were at the time. the silence is deafening and heavy, but enough so that she understands where this is going—enough that she understands what she wants.]
[she closes her eyes as dimitri kisses her, and she feels warmth. something just and right about this. saintly as she may actually be, her past is marred with such strong humanity and things that would otherwise mar her sainthood. no, at this time she doesn't need to move further into the divine, but she needs to be tethered to a world where humanity still grips at her strong, where she can be part of the stupid, idiotic mess that is to live with scars and guilt and pain.]
[as they pull away from the kiss, byleth urges him to sit up properly beside her, so that she can press a hand to his cheek—smiling radiantly before pressing forward to kiss him again.]
[now that it's happening, it doesn't feel right to stop.]
[He has thought about this more than once. What it would be like, to have his lips press against hers. The reality is even greater than the imagining, the things it does to his body unquantifiable — his heartbeat, thundering. Blood rushing to the surface of his skin, flushing his cheeks. How he wants more of her, and now awakened to the feeling, he does not know how he ever lived without it.
He sits up, encouraged by her touch, then leans into the second kiss with just as much enthusiasm as before. He is… inexperienced in this — in all things that would encapsulate romance — but it feels right. Every millisecond is the world aligning itself into how it should be.
Dimitri only breaks away to breathe, and his words are equally breathy when he speaks, looking at her with a flushed face, and tilting his forehead against hers.]
I, ah… [Oh, Goddess. Words are so hard right now. It’s like he’s seventeen and useless again.] I have been wanting… to do that for a long time.
[she smiles into the soft press os his forehead against hers, feeling taken by the feeling even if she can't necessarily relate to dimitri's wanting to do this since before now. her affection for him was gradual, growing quietly in her heart with every word they shared and every battle they fought side by side.]
[her hand is warm against his cheek, and she can feel the heat of his face — perhaps mirroring her own — pressed against her.]
[desire is building up, and she doesn't quite know what to do with it.]
[At that question, he pulls back, though not quite far enough to detach him from her hand. His eye has widened slightly, though, searching — trying to parse the, er, meaning behind that question.
His flushed face is not going to abate anytime soon, at this rate.]
Sleeping— er, sleeping in your room?
[Can she hear the gears grinding in his head, overcoming the thud of his heartbeat?]
You want… to share a bed?
[What does she mean? Is he being to assumptive? How else is he supposed to take that after a kiss exchanged? hELP]
[his questions throw byleth on a loop, uncertain as to whether she measured their current situation properly? her expression pinches, showing doubt and confusion, and that trademark look of frustration when forced to look at her options and choose one (player/mc 'choose an option' screen).]
That way we can sleep, eventually. [nods] But before that, we could — keep kissing. [blunt!] It is normal if we are both attracted to each other. [critical hit!]
[Does he not want to? Maybe she should be asking if he's dead inside? Afraid that he’s going to give her the wrong impression, a negative impression, he’s quick to say—]
No, no, I want to. If I did not want to kiss you I would not have… [aaaaa] I would not have done it.
[His face is warm, heated, such a contrast to Byleth’s own expression of consternation.]
I am always wanting to spend time with you. If that is what you want, truly, then I would have to be a fool to say no.
[CRITICAL HIT INDEED. He calms his mind from spinning through all the possibilities — it is quite probable all she wants to do is kiss him and keep warm for the night. Calm down, self.]
[as most times, she takes the lead, standing up and this time taking his hands in hers, urging him to follow. this is exactly the opposite of what she had intentioned — heading back to her room, that is — but it seems to draw a positive reaction from dimitri, previously haunted by ghosts and guilt.]
[she walks with him, pace brisk (as usual), holding his hand. the chilly night air cools the flush on her face and soon enough they reach her bedroom. she removes herself from him and has him standing in the center of the room as she closes the doors, leaving them with nothing but the darkness and the silence of her bedroom.]
[suddenly, her heart feels like it's filling up the lack of sound — and she turns to face him, only to walk forward and close to him, pulling him in for a kiss before he can begin to question this or himself, an earnest kiss that pushes past the boundaries of soft and gentle first impressions.]
[When Byleth closes the door, leaving them swathed only in shadow, a faint nervousness tinges every cognizant thought. He becomes overly aware of where she stands — moving closer to him — and his heart once more thuds hard in his chest, not knowing what to expect. Or perhaps because he does know what to expect.
Much of his overthinking, however, goes flying out of his mind when she completely closes that space and kisses him. There’s no time to question it, no time to ask what she expects from him tonight, only the heated press of her lips against his own.
He can’t help but lean into it — returning it with a fervor that echoes their first. Just like Dimitri cannot help the noise of satisfaction he makes from the back of his throat, an arm reaching out to loop around her waist.]
[this kind of stimulation is new and byleth finds herself enjoying it, a spark of enthusiasm coursing through her as she feels dimitri draw her closer, an arm around her waist — in the noise that he makes, draining her of the air in her lungs like it's not her own to begin with.]
[her face heats up, her hands on his neck and cheek, her kisses earnest and hungry. she breathes against his skin, slowly finding room beyond his collarbone to put her hands on. on his arms, as she pushes him back towards the bed.]
—sit.
[byleth commands, voice low, her eyes opening to meet his own heated gaze.]
[One arm remains looped around her middle while the other begins to trail from her shoulder to the side of her face, leaning in further to indulge himself in the kiss. It would be easy enough to lose himself in this one moment, to be happy enough with just this alone (his heart still feels like it may explode) but suddenly Byleth’s hands are at his forearms—
And pushing him back, sending his balance gently backwards and giving him no choice but to sit on the bed. The mattress jostles a little under his sudden weight.
His voice is a bit breathless.]
Byleth... [He meets her gaze, a smoldering thing. Dimitri feels like he is to await a command, not unlike on the battlefield— or rather, perhaps a little different.]
[she gathers him for context clues, dimitri for once not really expressing more other than her name. there's usually a question asking for her input or an offer of advice—something. but now, this is different. this is new.]
[fumbling lightly with what to do next, she manages to appear to keep her cool and walk over to him and stand between his legs, her hands lifting to cup his face and rest just under his ears.]
...I don't know what I'm doing.
[better to admit this before they push anything too far with the expectation that one or the other would know what to work with.]
But I know that I want to do this with you. [she mutters, nodding. she isn't so ignorant or dumb as to what kind of things people like sylvain get up to.] Would it be okay?
[His breath stills when she stands before him, reaching down to cup his face in her hands. He tilts his head up on instinct, always seeking that touch — her hands, always so warm, a source of comfort even in… uncertainty.
Because despite everything, he has to chuckle. Light, a twisted-up in wryness, but not without fondness.]
Of course. [Of course it would be okay. There is no one else that he would wish to learn how to share his adoration with.] I do not know what I am doing either, my love. You will find that you are in good company.
[she nods again, smiling at him — her nails faint on his skin as she leans in again and kisses him, soft and gentle this time. perhaps she can, from this point onwards, avoid speaking to dimitri altogether and communicate instead with kisses? that might be something. perhaps not entirely conducive to holding a conversation.]
[when byleth pulls away, byleth pushes him to scoot more onto the middle of the bed while she, too, takes a seat close to him — so close that she's pretty much sitting on his lap as she seeks for another kiss.]
[it's a slow one again; her cheeks flushed, eyes closed, a tentative hand pressing onto his side and sliding downwards until it rests at his hipbone.]
[He wishes he knew how to do more, how to feel confident enough to take the lead, but his inexperience is as he says — he doesn’t know what he’s doing, only able to work on instinct and whatever guidance she might happen to give. He does move closer to the middle of the bed when urged, his first inclination to make room for her, but Byleth is suddenly so close next to him she might as well be on his lap, and his breath hitches again.
She kisses him, and he seeks her lips with equal fervency, a hand leaning back into the mattress and unsure what to do with his other. Dimitri knows that he wants to feel her, though, as much as he can, that she should be as close as possible— so he reaches out behind her, looping his arm around and shifting her weight (easy to do with his strength) so she is in his lap, practically straddling him.
When he breaks that kiss again, looking up at her, his eye is searching and his cheeks are already so flushed. That headache from before? Fading, replaced by a different kind of pulse throughout his body.]
You can... [It seems that a little verbal communication will be necessary.] You can tell me what it is you want me to do. What you think you like.
[sitting like this, on him, byleth is suddenly hyper-aware of the kind of intimacy they are mustering up the courage to fumble into. she hasn't really thought much about it—about what she thinks she would like, or what it is she would want her partner to do. her green eyes stare questioningly at dimitri's own, as if trying to communicate this very sentiment.]
[perhaps she should just tackle this like a strategy for battle.]
Do what you feel is right. [somewhat unhelpful...] Eventually, we'll have to remove our clothes, so... we could start there. [quickly, she offers:] You can touch me however you want.
Reach out confidently.
[she reaches out, as if in demonstration, putting her hands around his head and carefully pulling up the threads of the eyepatch up.]
I trust you. [she nods] What is mine is yours.
[this is more of a confidence boost than an actual map for what to do, but byleth is certain it will help out. her trust in dimitri basically speaks that they will meet each other halfway, were there anything they did or didn't want.]
[that is to say— it bears repeating—] Touch me however you want.
[It’s strange. She presents to him something like a roadmap — a very vague roadmap, sure — but knowing that he possesses her trust, so much that he might do “what feels right” and touch her however he pleases, is reassuring. It’s the kind of guidance that Byleth always gives him, in and out of the battlefield. General instruction, but an inherent confidence that he may take matters into his own hands if deemed necessary.
None of this is necessity (though his body might be disagree later), but in the midst of an intimacy that remains foreign to him, Dimitri appreciates the advice to act confidently. To be given everything, and to expect the same in return.
He nods, even as she removes his eyepatch, revealing the scarring across his right eye and an iris gone a paler blue in its uselessness.]
It's… unflattering, I know.
[His eye, he means, believing it to be a particularly ugly feature. But Dimitri isn’t concerned about her seeing it so openly (trust, as she said), and his ease of sliding his hands beneath her shirt almost immediately is proof of that. His fingertips are calloused against her skin, his tough never one that knew delicacy, and they run up along her torso and sides, feeling planes of muscle that had all been hidden to him before.]
[she shakes her head at his words, pressing a kiss on his cheek just under where the scar ends. his hands move under her shirt, and her breath hitches at the sensation. she's never been touched by a man in this manner before, and it's thrilling. tilting her head to the side, byleth puts her hands on his forearms and follow them towards her shirt, grabbing at the edge of it and slowly pulling it up—without preamble and without much warning, her eyes closed as she shakes her hair into place.]
[her coat falls from her shoulders in the same movement, and, needless to say, dimitri is met with byleth's bare chest.]
[scars mar her skin, her muscles on her biceps and torso tight; no one is perfect, and her skin can be just as unflattering as his own scar. her flush spreads from her face to her shoulders, but it doesn't deter her from taking hold of one of his hand to rest on her breast.]
[His hands had begun a slow journey upwards, their end destination her upper chest— But then Byleth but removes her shirt, bearing all for him to see, and Dimitri’s own heart goes haywire, sending blood careening through his body to make his flush all the more prevalent. She moves his hand to rest on her breast, and he— Goddess, logically he knew that it would come to this, but it is more than he ever imagined in the breath of a moment. If he had ever quietly fantasized about touching her in this way — thoughts that were quickly tamped down out of propriety and perhaps a bit of shame, in his younger years — then they have suddenly become reality, and it’s almost comedic that he doesn’t know what to do.
Do what you feel is right, she had said, and all he can do is submit to his body’s instincts, his want for her that had been growing for some time now. Dimitri lets out a shuddering breath and cups her breast with his hand, rolling a calloused thumb over her nipple. His other lingers at her torso, tracing past long-healed scars, where the skin has gone paler than the rest. Scars earned together, in a way.]
I am not. [Ah, he cannot accept that kind of praise so easily. But for her—] But you are, beautiful in every way.
[He leans forward, knowing only that he wants to place his lips somewhere on her body, on these new and unexplored territories. They brush over her chest, and he tilts his head lower to place eager and sloppy kisses on her unattended breast, working his way slowly down to its center. His own body, meanwhile, feels like it’s been set aflame, a growing heat that can only be sated by her. By all of her, he’s starting to believe.]
[it's a learning experience for the both of them, and while dimitri lavishes her like she was a goddess (too close to home—), she can't help feeling irreparably mortal under his touch. her breathing quickens as he zeroes his focus onto her, soft sighs of enjoyment at the touch that he employs upon her skin, upon her breasts.]
Dimitri...
[his lips and tongue feel warm against her breast, sending an electric sensation spiraling down, she light shift of her legs but a reaction to the sensation.]
[her hands hold onto his shoulders, tugging the cloak (bae) away. the heat between them is growing, and she wants to see dimitri bare before her, without any layers to keep himself separate from the rest. she tugs at his shirt, a small squeak escaping her as she clamps down her lips to keep herself from moaning out in pleasure at whatever goddess's work he is doing onto her.]
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[she rests a hand over his side while the other lands on his head, brushing his hair back with light, feather-like touches.]
[her smile is small.]
[tell me a story, he says. byleth wants to refute back his previous statement, of how there is so much blood on his hands. there is just as much on her own, too, from when she was a mercenary. no one in this war was saintlier than any other.]
Would you like to know about when I was a kid?
[the memories... are painful, filled with regret. sometimes she wishes she could have cherished the times she spent with her father better, devoid of the apathy that she grew up with, with the indifference of having such a renown father figure that everyone wished to impress.]
[so she begins, light and gentle with her words.] I learned how to ride a horse when I was around eight. I always saw my father on one, and I wanted to be just like him. But — you know, I was even smaller back then. [her height and jeralt's never quite matched] So, he got me a pony. Bumkin, because I couldn't really pronounce Pumpkin right.
It made him laugh every time I rode past him in 'Bumkin,' most likely yelling out of fear from how fast I was going.
[byleth keeps brushing his blond hair gently, but swallows thickly.]
My growing up was a blur of days. [she thinks] If there is... anything specific you want to know about, you can ask.
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The sensation of her fingers running through his hair, brushing stray strands aside, is calming. Dimitri closes his eye, kept still by her warmth.]
I can imagine it well. You, galloping alongside your father while mounted on your faithful pony.
[He’s smiling more sincerely now. It really is an amusing thought, trying to imagine her so small, still learning.]
I was even younger when I rode my first horse. Many children in Faerghus are taught how to ride and wield a sword before they also learn how to write — royalty was especially no exception. My father… [It’s difficult, sometimes, speaking about happier times so openly. But just as Byleth shared with him, he will do the same. It’s only fair.] My father placed me atop a warhorse. I was terrified, it was so large, I clung to its mane the entire time he led it around the stables, reassuring me that it would be all right. That riding was in my blood, like so much else in the Blaiddyd line.
[He pauses, letting that settle. Memories weighing deeply on both of them.]
Your father taught you how to wield a sword too, didn’t he? Did you take to it with ease?
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[it's great, she thinks, to hear dimitri speak openly about his own memories of the past, as difficult as they are. the tragedy in duscur made conversations about his father and family a seldom affair, but since they're both sharing — it really is only fair.]
[and while happy it is a memory, it makes byleth... pause.]
[it seems like their pasts and present has been marred with responsibility and bloodshed and just what it means to walk the path set before them. she sees it even now, as dimitri will be crowned king and she will undoubtedly ascend to archbishop of the church of seiros. being taught to wield a sword, the blood that has covered the blades she's wielded, her own inability at saving her father although she could turn back time. she wishes for happier times, together.]
[with a small sigh and a nod, she keeps her face down to look at him, a sad look in her eyes.]
After all this is over, will you be at my side? I—
[she hesitates, closing her mouth and lips a thin line as she tries to find the words.]
I want to make a happy life — with you.
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When it comes, he opens his eye again, brow pinching. Her train of thought has taken her elsewhere, and while he often struggles to make the connections to follow, it’s far easier this time. Speaking of the past always leads to how one wants it to affect the future — he would know this better than anyone, now.
He shifts, turning to lay on his back. From this angle, he can see her face, gazing up at her with consideration. Her features are cast against the warm illumination of the greenhouse.]
Byleth. [In this moment, the title is dropped. No longer Professor and ex-student, or king-to-be and his loyal comrade and irreplaceable friend. Just Dimitri and Byleth, an intimacy between them that carves out this familiarity.] I do not plan on ever being without you. I…
[I want to make a happy life — with you. His heart may burst.]
You make me happy. Now, just being close with you like this; that is all it takes. From here on out, this will not change. [And yet, this is not just about him, it has not been for a long time now.] But I wish to be strong enough for you, as well. I want to make you happy. Make you laugh. I want to chase after your smile in every way possible. You have done so much for me, and I— I want to be able to return the favor.
If it is happiness you want, I will offer every part of myself to create it for you. It is what you deserve, and more.
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[you make me happy. dimitri makes her happy, too. i want to make you happy. make you laugh. i want to chase after your smile in every way possible. this is exactly what byleth wants, too, her feelings put into words so precisely it's almost shocking that dimitri got them spot on. her father's words i hope you'll give this ring to someone you love as well as i love her, speaking of her mother, and at the time she felt that he was teasing her for a bit — the subject of love embarrassing in a childish sort of way.]
And I will love you in return. [this seems right] More so than what I do now.
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He doesn’t deserve her love. She is so very, very beyond him in every way. She is divine, her soul blessed by the Goddess; he is just a broken man who will one day pretend he is fit to be King. No, he doesn’t deserve it, but he cannot help but covet it all the same.
He swallows. Dimitri’s heart won’t still in his chest. He dumbly has no words, but he does not need them.
He reaches up, sliding a hand behind her head, fingers lacing through her hair. His other arm props himself up by the elbow and he cranes his neck, lifting, stealing a kiss from her lips. No warning, no preamble — he’s wanted this for so long.]
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[she closes her eyes as dimitri kisses her, and she feels warmth. something just and right about this. saintly as she may actually be, her past is marred with such strong humanity and things that would otherwise mar her sainthood. no, at this time she doesn't need to move further into the divine, but she needs to be tethered to a world where humanity still grips at her strong, where she can be part of the stupid, idiotic mess that is to live with scars and guilt and pain.]
[as they pull away from the kiss, byleth urges him to sit up properly beside her, so that she can press a hand to his cheek—smiling radiantly before pressing forward to kiss him again.]
[now that it's happening, it doesn't feel right to stop.]
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He sits up, encouraged by her touch, then leans into the second kiss with just as much enthusiasm as before. He is… inexperienced in this — in all things that would encapsulate romance — but it feels right. Every millisecond is the world aligning itself into how it should be.
Dimitri only breaks away to breathe, and his words are equally breathy when he speaks, looking at her with a flushed face, and tilting his forehead against hers.]
I, ah… [Oh, Goddess. Words are so hard right now. It’s like he’s seventeen and useless again.] I have been wanting… to do that for a long time.
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[her hand is warm against his cheek, and she can feel the heat of his face — perhaps mirroring her own — pressed against her.]
[desire is building up, and she doesn't quite know what to do with it.]
Do you— mind sleeping in my room tonight?
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His flushed face is not going to abate anytime soon, at this rate.]
Sleeping— er, sleeping in your room?
[Can she hear the gears grinding in his head, overcoming the thud of his heartbeat?]
You want… to share a bed?
[What does she mean? Is he being to assumptive? How else is he supposed to take that after a kiss exchanged? hELP]
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[his questions throw byleth on a loop, uncertain as to whether she measured their current situation properly? her expression pinches, showing doubt and confusion, and that trademark look of frustration when forced to look at her options and choose one (player/mc 'choose an option' screen).]
That way we can sleep, eventually. [nods] But before that, we could — keep kissing. [blunt!] It is normal if we are both attracted to each other. [critical hit!]
Do you not want to?
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No, no, I want to. If I did not want to kiss you I would not have… [aaaaa] I would not have done it.
[His face is warm, heated, such a contrast to Byleth’s own expression of consternation.]
I am always wanting to spend time with you. If that is what you want, truly, then I would have to be a fool to say no.
[CRITICAL HIT INDEED. He calms his mind from spinning through all the possibilities — it is quite probable all she wants to do is kiss him and keep warm for the night. Calm down, self.]
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[as most times, she takes the lead, standing up and this time taking his hands in hers, urging him to follow. this is exactly the opposite of what she had intentioned — heading back to her room, that is — but it seems to draw a positive reaction from dimitri, previously haunted by ghosts and guilt.]
[she walks with him, pace brisk (as usual), holding his hand. the chilly night air cools the flush on her face and soon enough they reach her bedroom. she removes herself from him and has him standing in the center of the room as she closes the doors, leaving them with nothing but the darkness and the silence of her bedroom.]
[suddenly, her heart feels like it's filling up the lack of sound — and she turns to face him, only to walk forward and close to him, pulling him in for a kiss before he can begin to question this or himself, an earnest kiss that pushes past the boundaries of soft and gentle first impressions.]
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Much of his overthinking, however, goes flying out of his mind when she completely closes that space and kisses him. There’s no time to question it, no time to ask what she expects from him tonight, only the heated press of her lips against his own.
He can’t help but lean into it — returning it with a fervor that echoes their first. Just like Dimitri cannot help the noise of satisfaction he makes from the back of his throat, an arm reaching out to loop around her waist.]
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[her face heats up, her hands on his neck and cheek, her kisses earnest and hungry. she breathes against his skin, slowly finding room beyond his collarbone to put her hands on. on his arms, as she pushes him back towards the bed.]
—sit.
[byleth commands, voice low, her eyes opening to meet his own heated gaze.]
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And pushing him back, sending his balance gently backwards and giving him no choice but to sit on the bed. The mattress jostles a little under his sudden weight.
His voice is a bit breathless.]
Byleth... [He meets her gaze, a smoldering thing. Dimitri feels like he is to await a command, not unlike on the battlefield— or rather, perhaps a little different.]
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[fumbling lightly with what to do next, she manages to appear to keep her cool and walk over to him and stand between his legs, her hands lifting to cup his face and rest just under his ears.]
...I don't know what I'm doing.
[better to admit this before they push anything too far with the expectation that one or the other would know what to work with.]
But I know that I want to do this with you. [she mutters, nodding. she isn't so ignorant or dumb as to what kind of things people like sylvain get up to.] Would it be okay?
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Because despite everything, he has to chuckle. Light, a twisted-up in wryness, but not without fondness.]
Of course. [Of course it would be okay. There is no one else that he would wish to learn how to share his adoration with.] I do not know what I am doing either, my love. You will find that you are in good company.
[He exhales, breathless and anticipatory.]
But I wish to learn. With you.
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[when byleth pulls away, byleth pushes him to scoot more onto the middle of the bed while she, too, takes a seat close to him — so close that she's pretty much sitting on his lap as she seeks for another kiss.]
[it's a slow one again; her cheeks flushed, eyes closed, a tentative hand pressing onto his side and sliding downwards until it rests at his hipbone.]
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She kisses him, and he seeks her lips with equal fervency, a hand leaning back into the mattress and unsure what to do with his other. Dimitri knows that he wants to feel her, though, as much as he can, that she should be as close as possible— so he reaches out behind her, looping his arm around and shifting her weight (easy to do with his strength) so she is in his lap, practically straddling him.
When he breaks that kiss again, looking up at her, his eye is searching and his cheeks are already so flushed. That headache from before? Fading, replaced by a different kind of pulse throughout his body.]
You can... [It seems that a little verbal communication will be necessary.] You can tell me what it is you want me to do. What you think you like.
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[sitting like this, on him, byleth is suddenly hyper-aware of the kind of intimacy they are mustering up the courage to fumble into. she hasn't really thought much about it—about what she thinks she would like, or what it is she would want her partner to do. her green eyes stare questioningly at dimitri's own, as if trying to communicate this very sentiment.]
[perhaps she should just tackle this like a strategy for battle.]
Do what you feel is right. [somewhat unhelpful...] Eventually, we'll have to remove our clothes, so... we could start there. [quickly, she offers:] You can touch me however you want.
Reach out confidently.
[she reaches out, as if in demonstration, putting her hands around his head and carefully pulling up the threads of the eyepatch up.]
I trust you. [she nods] What is mine is yours.
[this is more of a confidence boost than an actual map for what to do, but byleth is certain it will help out. her trust in dimitri basically speaks that they will meet each other halfway, were there anything they did or didn't want.]
[that is to say— it bears repeating—] Touch me however you want.
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None of this is necessity (though his body might be disagree later), but in the midst of an intimacy that remains foreign to him, Dimitri appreciates the advice to act confidently. To be given everything, and to expect the same in return.
He nods, even as she removes his eyepatch, revealing the scarring across his right eye and an iris gone a paler blue in its uselessness.]
It's… unflattering, I know.
[His eye, he means, believing it to be a particularly ugly feature. But Dimitri isn’t concerned about her seeing it so openly (trust, as she said), and his ease of sliding his hands beneath her shirt almost immediately is proof of that. His fingertips are calloused against her skin, his tough never one that knew delicacy, and they run up along her torso and sides, feeling planes of muscle that had all been hidden to him before.]
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[her coat falls from her shoulders in the same movement, and, needless to say, dimitri is met with byleth's bare chest.]
[scars mar her skin, her muscles on her biceps and torso tight; no one is perfect, and her skin can be just as unflattering as his own scar. her flush spreads from her face to her shoulders, but it doesn't deter her from taking hold of one of his hand to rest on her breast.]
You're perfect, Dimitri.
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Do what you feel is right, she had said, and all he can do is submit to his body’s instincts, his want for her that had been growing for some time now. Dimitri lets out a shuddering breath and cups her breast with his hand, rolling a calloused thumb over her nipple. His other lingers at her torso, tracing past long-healed scars, where the skin has gone paler than the rest. Scars earned together, in a way.]
I am not. [Ah, he cannot accept that kind of praise so easily. But for her—] But you are, beautiful in every way.
[He leans forward, knowing only that he wants to place his lips somewhere on her body, on these new and unexplored territories. They brush over her chest, and he tilts his head lower to place eager and sloppy kisses on her unattended breast, working his way slowly down to its center. His own body, meanwhile, feels like it’s been set aflame, a growing heat that can only be sated by her. By all of her, he’s starting to believe.]
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Dimitri...
[his lips and tongue feel warm against her breast, sending an electric sensation spiraling down, she light shift of her legs but a reaction to the sensation.]
[her hands hold onto his shoulders, tugging the cloak (bae) away. the heat between them is growing, and she wants to see dimitri bare before her, without any layers to keep himself separate from the rest. she tugs at his shirt, a small squeak escaping her as she clamps down her lips to keep herself from moaning out in pleasure at whatever goddess's work he is doing onto her.]
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screams @ byleth
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