[Even if they had both known, maybe in their heart of hearts where none should dare whisper about it until this moment, saying it aloud still changes the shape of their relationship. Bringing it out into the light so that they might not turn their heads away from where it had resided in shadow. Remarking on the Behemoth of the room makes that same Behemoth disappear, and it is—
—Well. He does to know how to describe it.
Freeing, in a way. Still utterly terrifying, a part of him panicked and uncertain. But moreover, he knows that it is the truth, and X’rhun smiles so wide because of it; and that alone, he thinks, makes it worth unearthing, to make permanent between them.]
Yes. [He leans towards X’rhun, his dear friend, his impossible lover, and he says—] Yes, I did, and I should not have neglected it until now. But I did not feel as if I could look at that light you give me and not believe it to be a waste.
[He kisses him then, briefly, impulsively, lips only brushing because there is more to say.]
But given a second chance, and your willingness to remain close, I know now it is not a waste at all.
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—Well. He does to know how to describe it.
Freeing, in a way. Still utterly terrifying, a part of him panicked and uncertain. But moreover, he knows that it is the truth, and X’rhun smiles so wide because of it; and that alone, he thinks, makes it worth unearthing, to make permanent between them.]
Yes. [He leans towards X’rhun, his dear friend, his impossible lover, and he says—] Yes, I did, and I should not have neglected it until now. But I did not feel as if I could look at that light you give me and not believe it to be a waste.
[He kisses him then, briefly, impulsively, lips only brushing because there is more to say.]
But given a second chance, and your willingness to remain close, I know now it is not a waste at all.