selfdissecting: (hymenoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-18 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ have you ever heard of "Spelljamming", Astarion? perhaps not in so many words, but the githyanki, Creche K'liir within the Tears of Selune, even the nautiloid itself... there are grand and terrible things that exist beyond the stars.

strange things. weird things. things that don't crash upon the Material Plane quite the same as the nautiloid ship, but somehow slither through the cracks as if by mistake, and find themselves... here. in a strange, loud, beautiful city they do not recognize. they know of no way back, and they are alone, and they do not look like anyone else.

so. to this end.

there's a weird bug in your garden, Astarion. there's four arms. there's way too many eyes, studded in the oil slick of their ponytail like charms. and it's crouched hiding behind your rose bushes. Astarion. ]
selfdissecting: (hymenoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-18 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ no, no—! they feel their heart leap into their throat—

ah. no, they don't feel that, actually. but they remember the sensation, and it slides across their mind like a phantom pain as the rose bush moves and parts, and Maeve, who is crouched down in their silky butterfly-patterned dress, looks up and produces a butterfly knife from—somewhere?

from somewhere.

it flicks open and spins in hand to brandish, not as a violent instigator about to leap at him, but rather a prey animal that has remembered it possesses teeth and claws. ]

Hiding.

[ her voice, this voice, it is faint and high and scratches at the inside of your skull, something that human (or elven) ears are not meant to hear ]

I won't hurt anyone.
selfdissecting: (diptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-18 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ "unless, perhaps," is close enough to a command for Maeve Cutter. always so compelled to obey those who exert a little power over them—and whatever this man is (unsettling, he's unsettling), they can sense the wisps of power emanating from him like flashes of silver in the dark.

it itches inside her skull, selfsame. the very same.

the knife trembles in their hand, a truly white-knuckled grip, but the words begin to spill, as though he himself is pulling them from her mouth. ]

These are yours? I didn't know. I don't know why I'm here at all. How—I got here. But there are so many humans. I didn't want to scare them, so... I hid.
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[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-18 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ when you are told to stand, you stand.

when you are told to put down the knife, you... you...

she glances down at the blade--anodized steel, an oil slick made weapon. it fits perfectly in her palm, nestled upon the calluses of years of use. she doesn't want to want to put it away.

but. when you're told to.

they spin it in hand, not with the ease of someone who can go through the motion by heart, but by watching themselves do it, carefully. then they part the slit of their dress and slip the balisong into a sheath strapped to one thigh.

on their feet, Maeve can look him in the eye, crimson met with the flat pupils and odd colour of a deep sea creature. or, perhaps, a Far Realms creature. there are eyes in the oil-sheen, sticky-looking ponytail which drape over their shoulder, and each eye looks at him resolutely in turn. four arms, each very real. it is no illusion, no prosthetic. they stand as though subject to inspection, with their hands folded in front of them, perfectly manicured and laden with rings. they all have been fashioned to look beetles, scarabs, bees made of gemstones and gold. ]

Like this?
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[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-18 05:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Outsider.

[ "shoggoth". but maybe he... wouldn't know what that would mean. shouldn't volunteer it.

still, she flinches as he takes her wrist. but it's a flinch too soon, before he's even touched; not a physical reaction to his grip, but one borne entirely of the sight of and the understanding that he is reaching for them.

and in Astarion's grip, he will feel the mass beneath the flesh undulate slightly. no. more than slightly--he will feel it move as though the bones are abruptly sliding into place, though still not quite right. a body that forgets the more detailed shape it is meant to have until reminded, as it is reminded now, that it's meant to have it.

the eyes in their ponytail close. open again, almost demure. ]

Or Maeve. You can call me that, too. Maeve Cutter...
selfdissecting: (hymenoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-18 08:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ in his grip, her own hangs limp, lifeless, and so unusually heavy for as slender as it is. the way their name sounds in his mouth prompts a shiver, though they cannot feel it move through them, how it tugs their hand in his

is this dangerous? it could be, but there is no one else here to take their cues from. only him, and he's the one giving orders. asking questions. they have to reply. ]

From the Sothothian Republic. It... is very, very far away. Yes.

[ where, in relation to here? elder gods only know. ]

I think I should go.
selfdissecting: (actias luna)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-19 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ they are looking at his face, those piercing eyes, and not at how he's holding onto them. when he squeezes, there comes no physiological or emotional response; they simply... continue to stand there, their arm in his hand.

lips parted, murmuring softly beneath their breath. this is why they were hiding in the rose bushes! this is why they were holding onto the knife. and now, because he is the only person in front of them offering anything at all, they bend to the need to listen to him. whatever he's talking about, he's talking about it like fact. like he knows this will happen.

what do they know?

what will they do? ]

Who are the Flaming Fist?
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[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-19 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there's still nothing. not until the moment that, at the picture of bleak hopelessness Astarion paints, Maeve dodges his gaze, the many eyes of her ponytail drifting downwards. she sees his nails en-pointe, cutting into her. she inhales roughly, but where someone else might try to yank free, they stand frozen, disarmed by the mere suggestion of entrapment. ]

Let go.
selfdissecting: (hymenoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-19 04:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Are you really asking?

[ it's a distinction they have to make. there is no sarcasm in their voice, only a thin rope of tension, and an earnest anticipation of an answer.

like, they aren't stupid. they can see when something is dangerous, when someone means them harm. they know what it means when a person holds you so tightly your skin turns pink beneath their nails, what a cruel laugh sounds like. they also know what it's like to be the one holding on, while the other begs, please, just let me go, don't hurt me, I'll do anything.

when she's alone, like this... is that the person she has to be again? ]
selfdissecting: (zoraptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-19 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ permission. direction. authority. it's all Maeve has ever asked for.

their auxiliary eyes all open, all of them--dozens of them--in the length of their sticky ponytail, and all of them gazing down. a watchful gaze under which they produce another knife, somewhere beneath their skirt.

it flashes in the warmth of the sun, and something catches, there's the splash of blood on the air, but the blade is still in motion, gripped hard between nicked fingers, tucking up and bearing down into the back of his hand ]

Let go.
selfdissecting: (reduviidae)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-19 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he isn't going to let go. not if they ask, and definitely not if they cut.

their heartbeat pulses in their own ears: unsteady, uneven roiling, as of waves in the deep, of thunder behind the clouds, of great old ones murmuring to her. this man will not let go.

their eyes (their many, many eyes) dart down. and up again ]

I know you are holding me.

[ and their brain supplies, sometimes still, the way it used to feel, back before they gave that curse away. touch... ]
selfdissecting: (trichoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-19 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ you never run from a predator. you back away, and you do it slowly. that's what they do now, though all it does is ensconce them further in the bushes. ]

Cuts always sting.

[ a safe answer. logical. their eyes are roving his face with perturbation--he looks like he could be Outsider, too, but there is none of the kinship. none of the self in the other ]
selfdissecting: (hymenoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-20 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ its insides probably are shiny and sickly and black, exactly like the blood which drips slowly from their fingers and stains the roses and the grass. even after he's moved back, Maeve finds herself still holding her blade in what she estimates must be a tight grip, because her skin goes very pale wherever it touches the handle.

"darling"... Maeve remembers being called "darling". ]

I'm not... not a guest. I shouldn't be here. You shouldn't have met me.

[ this could be very, very bad. don't think about that, though. think about what you're going to do to prevent it from getting worse. ]

I'm sorry about your roses.
selfdissecting: (embiidina)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-20 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ "darling" is nice. sounds like being cared for. sounds like what she sometimes would privately hope for Vesper and Phosphor to call her... but they never would. what kind of boss would do that? not them, never. no, instead it's the triplets, and it's always to Lysander, and they always sound mean when they say it.

...

they look down at Astarion's bleeding hand. up at his face. down at his hand. both at once, because. well. they can. ]

Me? [ lol. ] I'm not usually good at taking advantage of things. That's not what I'm... for.
selfdissecting: (orthoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-20 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ something tells them, quietly, in the very very far reaches of their mind, that they shouldn't say. it wouldn't be wise to say.

but he wants to know.

they look down abruptly, entirely, and begin the painful, slow work of closing their knife again. ]

For... Fixing things. I'm a Fixer. And that means doing what everyone needs me to do to help them.
selfdissecting: (phthiraptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-21 06:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes.

[ it is simply not in Maeve's nature to lie. it takes too much confidence, and it falls apart the moment anyone suspects; to ask for the truth is to receive it. with the balisong folded, they hike their hemline and slip it into a sheath strapped to their nicked and scarred thigh.

in bowing their head down to do this, the auxiliary eyes watch Astarion. they are a simple creature to influence, and even easier to win over, but they are also a street rat at their core, and they know better than to trust, even if they can't help but to listen. ]

And sometimes it's just... getting coffee. Delivering new bodies for HR. Or stopping the end of the world. [ a wan smile ] Simple things.
selfdissecting: (blattaria)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-22 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ they wait for a few seconds.

but, no. he really is asking. ]

. . .Human Resources.
selfdissecting: (strepsiptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-24 04:25 am (UTC)(link)
Um... mostly? I think so.

[ they remember the cadavers, but only in the abstract. a lot had been going on underneath the earth. ]

I didn't look that closely at the bodies. Sorry.
selfdissecting: (dermestes)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-25 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ —looking up sharply. not sharp in their gaze, but in speed. like the flash of a knife in the dark. their many strange eyes are all mostly... mournful. their heart aches, they think. they think it would, yes. ]

Yes. I need to go back.
selfdissecting: (hymenoptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-27 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ now, now they step forward, pulling from the rosebushes without any concern to the thorns catching in their clothes. what are snags when compared to a promise? ]

You would do that? ...You can do that?
selfdissecting: (ricinidae)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-30 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's noted. the words he chooses, very deliberately, to use; he's 'curious'. they are an 'opportunity'.

good. an opportunity doesn't get ignored. it's a purpose to fill, then, which goes a strangely long way towards calming them.

their lips lift in the vaguest of smiles. not 'happy'. more like 'accepting'. ]

Can I come out, in that case?
selfdissecting: (raphidioptera)

[personal profile] selfdissecting 2023-10-31 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ Maeve's many-eyed gaze slides away from him—which is, perhaps, short-sighted of them—and towards the LOOMING PALACE. ]

Okay.