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finalflight2023-06-26 11:54 am
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[It's too colorful, too perfect. The people, too effusive and all too eager to humor even a man of his countenance. If something bad were to happen, that would have gone against his wish when he wielded the Heart that now lies beating irregularly in his chest. It would have not have made sense.
But the forest that lies beyond the village, couching it on all sides, perhaps... the same did not apply. But why such a reaction to Lucinda?
Well. He barely has time to consider these thoughts, because the shadows that he sees as they move? They send a chill up his spine, again and again. Weir has encountered plenty of terrible things in the Pit, many far more disconcerting than this, but what he lays eyes upon now amid this foreign forest of bamboo is otherworldly in a different way. As though he is truly getting a peek of what it is like to live through the eyes of an esper.]
Maybe it's trying to get you to leave. [His voice grows more grave in turn.] You arrived via the forest; perhaps it knows that you are an anomaly.
But why did I have to be brought along with you?
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[There are so many questions between them and yet the one who should have the answers is also out of his depth.
After a minute or so passes, Lucinda stops midstep holding up her hand to make Weir pause as well.]
Listen.
[From a short distance the sound of tears being shed brings life into this bamboo world. Lucinda's face is expressionless but there's a spark of recognition in her eyes.]
... Let's go that way.
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Weir stops when Lucinda halts, too, his entire body tense. He hears the sound of crying lost in the depths of the slender trees.]
Why? Is that... [Maybe it's trying to dig deeply to cause a wound.] ...your voice?
[Ah.]
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[Her voice is barely a whisper now. She cuts through a narrow path of bamboo that is clear of ghosts and stops at a clearing. There, a young girl, perhaps no more than 11 or 12 years, dressed in a simple cotton tunic and trousers is on her knees crying. She's a skinny little thing and her black hair falls to the side of her face. Several shadows stand around her, staring and waiting.
Huyen was a pitiful child.
Lucinda says nothing for a few seconds and when she finally does speak up (the crying girl does not notice; the two adults do not exist in her periphery) her voice is detached. Emotionless.
She has to be because it's clear this forest wants to wound her.]
... Even though I feared this place, I could at least cry here. At least there were ghosts who could hear me.
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Not with her, this variable that he does not know what to do with, this woman who is asking too many questions of this world that he cannot answer. He canโt afford to care. Practically, and for his own sake, he simply cannot.
He tries to steel himself against the sight. He takes up a low, detached tone, and yet it still cannot rival Lucindaโs own. His eyes cut to her, and he finds the sight so, so eerie.]
What is this place? And all of these spirits? Is this what you saw when you were younger?
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[Huyen's crying turns into shuddering before she sits up, wipes her eyes, and stands, dragging her feet through the endless grove, muttering at the ghosts to move aside. They do. Lucinda follows her and the shadows keep the path clear for her and Weir.]
And I was very susceptible to all kinds of ghosts. The ones who want to give their final words to their loved ones. To use me as their voice. Or I could be an instrument to express their anger and vileness.
All these spirits Weir? I still see them, at least in my world. Here was a place many of them congregated and I found myself stuck in. There is a reason why I was confined.
Look.
[A tall shadow approaches the girl. It's glowing white eyes are menacing and it drives the other spirits away. Huyen backs away but the shadow's hand grabs her by the wrist and it hisses with glee.]
[The girl struggles and whimpers, shaking her head furiously. This is the type of sight that would make someone want to jump in between her and the vile ghost. But Lucinda makes no motion for it. Her eyes remain distant and detached.
It has already happened. She cannot change it. What ifs are poisonous.]
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There's nothing to envy. [He murmurs, and he quite means that. The Ceaseless Pit has all manner of monsters and things that can kill. There are gasses, wisping about at the lower levels, that can cause hallucinations much like his one, paralyzing mind instead of body, until the individual becomes lost and withers away to madness.
Is that what's happening to them now? How long will they be trapped in this? How long until they can leave? Why should he envy being stuck in these circumstances, far beyond his knowable control?]
What did you do?
[That, he says to Lucinda. That spirit, the one grabbing Huyen's hand, it's still a right intimating thing. Especially for a small child. However, Weir knows that this is little more than recollection, too; even if he did have a mind to step in (surprise, he does not), he wouldn't. This would change nothing. It isn't interactable, is it?
Like hell if he's risking himself first if it is. Lucinda's lead is the one to follow for now.]
Did you allow spirits like that to take you? To control you?
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I tried to fight them off, as best as I could. Sometimes I was able to run.
[Huyen breaks free of the shadow's grip and runs away. The shadow follows.]
But I would only know if I was successful once I woke up.
[Above them, the ink-black sky begins to twist and blink changing from a void to a ceiling. The scenery around them changes as if waking from a dream. Blink once and the two of them see the single window where the branch of a flowering tree peeks through. Blink twice, they see a single bed, expensive but useless furniture. Blink once again, and they see the pitiful girl with cuffs around both ankles and long chains that match the perimeter of the room. She listlessly lays on the floor, unmoving.
Unlike the bamboo forest and the numerous shadows... It's this place that temporarily stings Lucinda. She flinches. Swallows. Takes a deep breath.
She never wanted to return here.]
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(The scenery changes in the blink of an eye. A home. A bed. A girl, chained and unmoving.)
At this, Weir finally moves away from his spot a few paces behind Lucinda. He brushes past her, despite the way he can see her flinch along the line of her shoulders; maybe this disquiet is exactly the reason why he decides to draw nearer, despite his hesitance to care. He doesn't have to care in order to learn.]
This is you, as well. You... [He turns over his shoulder to look at Lucinda.] Who did this to you?
[As a Dredger with no family, nothing to his name, he was not treated kindly by most, yet nor was he treated without any regard at all. His work was still important, and a good Dredger was not as disposable as people liked to make them out to be -- after all, one that survives lengthily in the Pit is worth at least twenty who would die within their first month of exploration and gathering.
So this? No, this is someone treated without even that modicum of consideration compared to his childhood days. And that is a low bar to clear, all things considered.]
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From the floor, Huyen drags her body and sits up. At the entrance of the door is a man with a woman behind him. The former's expression is hard and on alert. The woman wears expensive-looking silk and heavy makeup that does her no favors as worry creases her forehead. They approach her with caution as if she's an animal. The woman speaks up first, in that language that Weir heard Lucinda used not so long ago but in this illusion he can understand what's being said.]
[The cut grows deeper, the wound turns her stomach, and Lucinda doesn't know whether to cry or laugh, or fall to the ground. Of all things she thought she killed any feeling towards the people who had birthed her so long ago and no, oh no. Even when she assured Weir that she had come to terms with what had happened to her, seeing it again makes the realization even worse.
It was the realization that somewhere deep down, beneath the righteous fury and the severing of ties, the remnant of a child's love remained.
She takes a step back, her shoulder brushing with Weir's and that snaps her out of the endless pit of despair. Lucinda attempts to answer him again and all she can come out with are rueful words.]
Dresses. Mother thought the dresses would make all of this bearable.
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Sheโs but a tool. A money-making object for her parents to utilize for their own happiness, but not hers. Never hers.]
Your parents are like any other.
[He says, looking at her younger self, frowning deeply. His words do not console, but theyโre hardly meant to.]
Those who take advantage of what theyโve been given. Even if that means garnering it from their own flesh and blood. Blood ties themselves do not meanโฆ affection comes in its wake.
[He looks over his shoulder at her. Now, he can see it clearly: this still hurts Lucinda.]
At least they saw a use for you.
[His own? They left him. Next to that river, knowing full well that in Turnerโs Vale, a child with nothing to its name would be delegated a fate to living its life gathering in the Pit. That it would die down there, someday. And someday, indeed, he nearly did.]
At least they pretended to care.
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[Her voice is barely a whisper. They watch as the father undoes the cuffs around Huyen's ankles and the mother and the maid, who followed her inside, take her by the shoulders and coax her up to sit on the bed. Father leaves and the maid starts brushing Huyen's long hair while Mother goes to the closet to choose a robe.]
They loved me when I wasn't useful. When I didn't see shadows.
[It was difficult to remember a time like that, but she does remember. And that's what makes this whole thing worse.]
But then it became poisoned. Sometimes I think it was my fault; showing them what I could do when my abilities awakened. [Lucinda leans against the wall now. There's no ill will left in her eyes. Just darkness and melancholy.]
They had no knowledge of how to help me. I couldn't even help myself. They saw an opportunity to exploit desperate broken people who wanted to hear their loved ones' voices and I was a child who wanted their love. But if I was inconvenient...
[She buries her face in the riding cloak to force down a dry sob that threatened to escape. The medium looks at Weir while biting her lip.]
You think so too. That I'm an inconvenience.
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[But what does Weir know about love, familial or otherwise? Absolutely nothing. The intricacies of how you can hurt someone you still care for elude him. He does not care to understand; he never did.
So perhaps this comes across as callous, uncaring. But he only thinks that he is being reasonable, clear-headed. And when she looks like she might crumble under the weight of terrible recollection and old, buried emotions, Weir steps forward. Reaches out to grab her by the wrist, to earn her attention so that she focuses solely on him.]
So what if you are? Your presence in this world has been nothing but trouble to me, aye. Look at where you've landed us; in a terrible memory of your own, in which I have neither care nor investment!
[Again, not particularly comforting words, but he doesn't aim to be.]
But if you choose to fall to these remembrances here and now, and keep us trapped in this fucking forest, then you are less than an inconvenience. You are little more than a bad omen. So snap out of it! If you want to prove your worth, then I'll happily give you the opportunity. But we need out of here first.
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[Her friends could protect her body but not her heart. Lucinda shuts her eyes as Weir grabs her wrist. His words are a different hurt. A bad omen, trouble, inconvenientโ]
So snap out of it!
[The people in the memory start to leave for the door. And suddenly without warning, Lucinda heads for the door and pulls Weir with her. When they're both outside of the basement prison, she slams the door behind them to trap the memories within. There are voices, shouting, confused, and enraged. But she remembers they're in the forest. The forest wants to hurt her.
But oh, the forest can't really account for the fact that she's always been hurting.
There's pounding against the door, but she puts her back against it staring at the ground. Eventually the pounding stops. It's quiet in the house.
Some memories can stay where they are, locked away, and only to be opened when necessary.]
... Let's go then.
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Let's go then.
The forest around them trembles. Bamboo, or trees proper? For a moment, just a fleeting thing, itโs hard to say. It could be both. Maybe something about the forest's influence wavers, now, seeing how Weir keeps hold of her as they move.]
Just push forward. That is all we can do for now. Leave this behind us โ behind you.
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... Weir?
[Lucinda's face is turned away from him.]
Are you any good at pretending?
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Pretending? At what?
[Is this relevant-]
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โPretend you don't hear anything from me. I'll keep going. Just...
[Don't acknowledge her tears. She wants to leave those behind with the memories.]
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Ah.
He pauses just long enough to look over his shoulder at her, brow cinched. He sees the glisten of tears running down her face.
Gods. He's not equipped for this. To be fair, she isn't asking for him to be.]
If you keep it to yourself, what reason do I have to belabor the point of your tears?
[Again, the forest shifts, becoming nothing but reams and reams of bamboo again. Weir frowns, noticing the change.]
Just keep close. [He says, experimentally, and the forest shifts again... back into a flicker of trees, the forest that he knows.]
This forest... it sees you as a guest, either wanted or unwanted. Come closer and... [Gods, what?] Cry all you like, woman.
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[Her dear friends are a comfort when no one else in her life can be. They loved her in spite of, or even because of her dead heart that somehow made her produce tears.
And so those tears fall but silently, not with a whimper or a choking sob like the pitiful girl in the bamboo grove. At Weir's prompting, she moves closer, wiping away her tears with the cloak in her arms.]
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His own? Itโs frankly quite possible.
The opposite, then, is to act like this isnโt the case. To be welcoming, warm. Sโฆupportive. Does he even know the meaning of the word?
Technically, yes. In practice, he may be lacking. Case in point: when she gets closer, Weir draws her in with an arm in a performative show of faux comfort. His eyes remain on the trees. A murmur:]
You asked if I can pretend. I bloody well can, and so should you. Pretend youโre comfortable with me.
[And louder, for the forest-]
Itโs very well fine for you to be sad, Lucinda.
[The energy is practically this.]
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You're... You're terrible. [The esper does lean her forehead against him. Exhaustion? Sudden relief? Both?]
But I don't have to pretend with you.
[Lucinda has been comfortable with Weir, the way one is in the company of a feral cat. You already know that normal affection will not reach it, that attempts to do so will be met with a scratch and a hiss. But you both know you're starting to get used to each other's company.
It's funny. It's so funny she's survived the basement, multiple spirits, her training with the Collective, and so many missions that required her all where she faced possible death with a smile. And here she is in another world buckling under the pressure of seeing her weakness flaunted in front of her.
No, she won't die from this. She'll survive once again even if she needs to depend on the world's most suspicious-hearted man.]
... Thank you.
[Lucinda squeezes his hand.]
Even if you don't mean it, I do.
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After all, it's not like he's truly devoid of empathy. Lucinda's childhood circumstances were not ideal, and she had been forced to do something she never asked for -- much like he did, his entire life devoted to a task he had no choice in, mostly for the advantage of those he didn't know. His life had more use for what he could do, not the sort of person that he was.
But this is such a small, flagging part of him so easily overturned by what he believes is best for himself, his self-centeredness ever focused on the situation at hand and how to skew it better in his favor. Her gratitude, then, is barely acknowledged:]
I mean it enough to get us out of here.
[But maybe this showing is still enough. Maybe Lucinda's sincerity counts for something, and maybe Weir's willingness to play a part he's inherently uninvested in is enough of an effort for the forest to see it in a different light.
Maybe Lucinda isn't a trespasser. Maybe she really is a guest of a native of the Vale.
A breeze passes through. There's no fog this time, but the scent of the Sapphires is strong, almost pungent. And then, after a long few moments, every bit of memory--whatever was still clinging on before--falls away, and the forest is back to how it was when they first stepped within its boundaries.
It's cold again. Their breath coils white.]
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... It looks like I'm welcome now.
[Her voice is slowly becoming serene again.]
Rather belated but it's better than the alternative.
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["Welcome."
Immediately, Weir drops his arm. Though he has enough sense not to step away unless the forest decides that is yet one more sudden rejection of her presence.
He should feel relieved, and for a moment, he does. But in the next, he can only experience the onslaught of trepidation and utter exasperation, knowing that he really has stumbled across a complication in the form of a world-hopping medium deposited on his proverbial doorstep.
What is he going to do with her?]
...We should return to town, then. Unless you've still a mind to collect herbs and mushrooms after all that.
[he sure ain't]
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