[ PSL; one day we’ll reach homeostasis again ]

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[Mikotoba chuckles lightly. He's getting ahead of himself feeling so nostalgic already, but the thought of remaining, for just a little longer... he can't help himself. The bundle of infant he carries pulls her hands back towards her small body, cooing softly.]

I did, until today. That was what all the hold-up was about: I was hoping to bring her back to Japan. As my own daughter.

[Susato would've loved a sister, in some world where this had all gone according to plan. Even so, looking into the clear blue of her eyes, he still sees only the mother who'd left the girl behind.]

You see... it's her parentage, Sholmes.

[He mirrors Sholmes' smile back at him across their familiar quarters-- the expression small, a bit sad, on his face.]

They won't accept my adoption unless I can prove her identity. [Mikotoba's gaze falls back down to Iris, drifting off into an exhausted nap at long last. So young, and so unawares of the strange circumstances surrounding her birth; a part of him hopes she'll always be blessed with that ignorance, whatever happens to her.] I'm sure you're aware of the problem with that.

[And to do it illegally by smuggling her onto the ship? Well. He can't imagine a Japanese man stealing an English baby would go particularly well-- no matter that her alternative would be the orphanage.

But perhaps not her only alternative.]

Sholmes... Will you be finding another flatmate once I've left?

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[Even as Mikotoba speaks, Sholmes is assessing the options in his mind, knowing that they are left with very little. Prospects become less prospective as the days pass; hopes of bringing Iris to Japan under the man's care start to wane under the weight of legal rules and regulations, and the precarious exercise of balancing optics, else international diplomacy implode under its own laborious (yet easily-incensed) weight.

How insipid politics are, he thinks to himself, taking a particularly long drag of his pipe. Crafting so delicate a situation that no one benefits from its baleful complexities, that a child may be without a proper caretaker, lost in the shuffle of conspiracy. Should he consider it overlong—as he has already done; long nights with his Stradivarius in hand, wailing aggravated notes—he should find himself in a dour mood.

Yet there are alternatives. The child has options still remaining, those henceforth unspoken, and he thinks to give them a voice — until Mikotoba's question has him huffing the collection of smoke his lungs had plied away, caught somewhere between disbelieving and offended.]

Another flatmate? And why would I want something like that?

[Logically, of course, he should want something like that so he could rub two pennies together; able to pay the rent with more monthly certainty, rather than scrambling to make ends meet at the last moment like he had before he met Yujin. Reasonably, he should want to seek similar accommodations again.

Yet for Sholmes, this does not fall into those manageable bounds of reason. He cannot imagine another man in place of Mikotoba, someone else who would understand him half as well, someone who he could trust half as much. He is the only one in the world he can call a true friend, and to replace him as though he were just a mannequin made of plaster is a terrible, inconceivable thought.

Having a stranger in their flat—for that is all it would amount to, a stranger here, an intrusion of their space—would throw into stark contrast all he would miss about Mikotoba, all his little mannerisms and remarks, and jokes and scoldings, and he cannot bear to even consider it. The man's not even left the premises yet.]