[It should be reassurance to know that there will be no expectation. No obligation to force himself into that old life of helpfulness when he knows he won’t fit the mould any longer; the shape of his heart and mind are all wrong now, twisted by time, cruelty, and circumstance.
It should be reassuring, yes. But knowing that he will have to watch, all the same, while X’rhun travels this world, doing work that harkens back to his days as a healer, still sits wrong in his stomach. Memory can be just as unsettling as experience, and he can’t turn his eyes away towards distraction when the other man will be so keen to extend his generosity to all those around him.
But it is still a... better reply than the alternative, and Ardyn lets a moment of silence linger, weighted, before he leans forward with his elbows pressed to the table.]
Acceptable, then, I suppose. I shall hold you to it, you know; even the barest whisper of wanting me help with your altruistic— [A frown, a waggle of fingers.] —work, and I might go flying away, like a Zu seeking to block out the sun.
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It should be reassuring, yes. But knowing that he will have to watch, all the same, while X’rhun travels this world, doing work that harkens back to his days as a healer, still sits wrong in his stomach. Memory can be just as unsettling as experience, and he can’t turn his eyes away towards distraction when the other man will be so keen to extend his generosity to all those around him.
But it is still a... better reply than the alternative, and Ardyn lets a moment of silence linger, weighted, before he leans forward with his elbows pressed to the table.]
Acceptable, then, I suppose. I shall hold you to it, you know; even the barest whisper of wanting me help with your altruistic— [A frown, a waggle of fingers.] —work, and I might go flying away, like a Zu seeking to block out the sun.
[A fitting metaphor!]